Nameless Fameless

Heart

2012-02-15T00:22:00.000+05:30

I keep asking my heart

Asking it aloud to open up

Break the shell

Untie the chains

and Pull the feathers together

I wish my heart would listen to me

Would fly like a free bird in the sky

I wish my heart would not just be

a mere piece of flesh and then die

And when someone so important

so blissfully true

Takes a vow

to live with you

I ask my heart once again

Be free
Be free
let go

and a small prick here and there

my heart seems to bleed

Then a sudden burst of endless happiness

of passion desire and need

Love gushes and trembles

and breaks apart the walls

I hear my heart beat after ages

The man can hear the beating thump

and I blush like I haven't in ages

I keep asking my heart

Asking it to stop its cries so loud

It cries back at me

Oh, my friend

I feel alive

The Mystical Being

2012-01-22T00:28:00.002+05:30

You are your own master...
and you are your own slave...
you build your own kingdom
and you sing your own rebel...
You have the ocean
but you sail the sky
you grab the gold
but you deal with lives
You are humble and gentle
yet cold as steel
you are strong and slender
yet soft to feel
You are magnanimous and a coward
deep inside
you are a fool and a king
open your eyes
You are you who you think
And you think what you are
You are but nothing
A mystical being
and your mind has powers
beyond the books
and dreams of a young lad crossed
on beams
and yet you feel you drown
and sway on the ground
stand up
and fight
You will survive
You have no punishment
for all the faults you see
You are a pathetic
drafted seed
But one day you will find
How great the soul within is
And you will live up
to what you can be
Remember
always
You are a Mystical Being
And nobody dare
snatch that away
Because

You are your own master...
and you are your own slave...
you build your own kingdom
and you sing your own rebel...

Eight minutes to Love

2011-12-29T19:55:00.000+05:30

Sitting idle at a coffee bar

Sipping into some hot cappuccino

and life passes by

like a windy day

sunglass stares of the bourgeoisie

honking tonk of the cars

and I wonder what if

I get a glance

oh that woman in the pungent red dress

swaying her hair to the cross

naillpolish tip top-ed up to date

fancy crochet badge

and a heart felt wind carry some

bubbles from a boy in grey

and her hands flow up and down in sway

a heartfelt giggle rings my ears

I turn and fall to ground

no wonder they say

it just takes a moment

moment to sweep you off

i stare i stare

and she smiles away

what wonders have you created oh GOD

crystal bottles chunking to breath

I leave my table to walk a width

and she turns to glance at me

A glance which lasted an eternity

my white shirt drenched in the rain

i walk towards those deep sea eyes

she walks towards me

and every other moving sound

seems to stand still

i meet her at the bottom

of the clinton town hill

they have heart shaped balloons hanging from

a christmas way to welcome

we look at each other with breaths apart

and i think of heaven

she moves her lips

to say something

but all i hear is my own heat beat

beating out of the white checked shirt

i got ironed today evening

and i remind myself

seriously? is that what you can think of now

a damsel in red stands in front

asking a wonder or two

and i say

sorry could you repeat that

my mind shouts at me

dude you are insane you know

a soft whisper leaves her lips

i melt down on the floor

a distant memory rises up

a long dreamt dream drives

a sunday afternoon at the beach

a damsel i had passed by

she remembers my name she said

hello johnathan she smiles

i try to speak

my voice fails me

as i gape at her beautiful eyes

remember we met at the beach party

eight minutes to love she said

i could grab her now

and run away

is all i could think of late

i swear a two in my mind and muster the courage to speak

she puts her hand on my shoulders says a few to leave

and as she turns to cross the road

the man in me awakens

i hold the hand and pull her close

my lips touch the petals

we kiss

and we kiss a more

my watch beeps a tone

eight minutes to love

her i have

eight minutes more

- Saswati Barat

Raasta Life

2011-12-28T01:28:00.001+05:30

Raasta life

Admired bond

Countless nights

Sleepless roads

Roads less taken by dreams

Dreams which don't dare to kindle

Even in the wildest of states of being

God forsaken hint

Of loving a kind of gold

Behold

The nostalgia and nonsensical catabomb

Grinding its path to heaven

A light

Silver rings rising high

Stars of celestial embodied with shining sparkling dust

Smoke

The pungent taste of old

Welcome to

Raasta life

My friend

- Saswati Barat

Humanitarian Thoughts part A

2011-12-27T13:31:00.000+05:30

Can this humanity
claim
that it has drawn out
the best of its manners
can it say
it has been fair
to the world around
How can the world feel
so dismayed ?

Just by the bare existence of
oxygen in the levels of life
Sucks the fever of greed to believe
Money can buy the lie

And humanity they say

is adorned with trash mystique
Mystique my ass
Already so stereotypical mind
Pondering if a poetry should be of
such disgraceful history and profanity
I am
Audacity

Arrogant

Above all the Humans

the humanity proclaims has died

can it bring me back

the simplicity of joy

of giving and sharing not

how many apples I bite

windows that let my walls look open

its just a showcase of tragedy
look above the glass ceiling
meet the sky
flow like the endless sea
and you will know how Humanity
is supposed to be

Remember

2011-07-22T23:08:00.000+05:30

Remember the times when we played and laughed
and hoped to cry in each others arms ?
Remember the songs you sang for me
and I sang you a dreamy dawn
Remember the moments when we touched and kissed
and promised to be one forever
And remember the days you left me behind
and said you would come back never
I am still standing here for you
still breathing your sweat
with eyes still waiting for that smile of yours
which I wish was the last sight before my death
And as I think I am waiting for you
A soft wind blows by
A scent, familiar one you see
Takes my eyes off to see
And you are there bright as a sunshine
A new flower has bloomed
I see
Move on my friend she smiles at me
I find quite hard to feel
numb and damp I hit the ground
no sunshine falls this side
cold as ice I crawl back to bed
wishing it was my hide
Remembering all you reminded me
of all the memories gone by
Come back is all I whisper then
My last breath says good bye

my beloved

2011-07-22T21:13:00.002+05:30

Sudden drops of rain

Drain out of heart

and mind can do nothing

but smile

And hope that those sweet bitter memories

pass and come

and gently squeeze us to remind

and rewind the past

bring us to our happy place

elemental love

certainly not worth the

disgrace and humiliation you face

but why

all I did was try

try to love you the best way I could

and all you wanted me to be a dead soul

walk around

with an enchanted pendant

fly and high I go

with every passing minute

my soul disappears into the black hole

and the day shall come when I am nothing

but just a form of nothingness

hanging from the ceiling of

my one bedroom flat

a letter atop the desk

handwritten

a love letter to let you know

I had always loved you

my beloved

-Saswati Barat

come

2011-05-01T23:37:00.000+05:30

let me smother you

in my evil soul

make you sweat

with my tremendous ego

have you eat

in my soul full eyes

and dictate your thoughts

with my mind

come

- Saswati Barat

PS : was dancing .. had these thoughts .. so penned them down ..

Stay

2011-05-01T23:36:00.001+05:30

A thunderous night
With a melodious wind
Come and by
Brush my mind
Let my mind
Go free
Cause today I let go
Let go of you
And just let the wind be my guide
And what all I do is mine from now
Not a his master’s vow
And the earth can sing a song for me
Come my darling
Stand free
This freedom is all you want and need
And I can dance and breathe and sketch my world
In colours I like to be
Not a bird to change her wings with the course of life she takes
Coz I know my life shall let me be
The girl I want to stay

- Nameless Fameless

Hann and Beth

2011-05-01T23:34:00.000+05:30

when beth and hann had to leave

I thought I might just well forget them

as the others had told me

they would never be back

hann came and kissed my cheeks

leaving a trace of her scent

it was quite hard

to tell her she was special

but it was more hard when

beth told me she would be going away

away and forever away from me

the same usual nose to nose touch

and she ran ...ran as fast as she could

may be i was crying

may be she was

I wasn't quite sure whose tears were rolling down

my cheeks

and touched the spot where hann had kissed

it burnt

burnt so hard that i had to wash my face

and realize i wasn't myself

any more

or was I like this always

and had just changed with their

presence

beth

and hann

her name was hanna beth

she was my love

my first love

and now she was gone

dwelt back to the darkness of reality

I was not sure where I belonged

I had to pinch to know

and landed up in the brothels of London

and stood aside

with the spotless white camisole

to cover the last remaining dignity

I could run away

like beth and hanna did

or I could stay

like hanna beth

like me

my name

my identity

- Nameless Fameless :)

A symphony

2011-04-17T01:44:00.001+05:30

A symphony grinding far away
and the soft winds blow and by
and touch the soft skin and flow
good bye
Of life is consumed by lust and taste
and drowning by the body's cage
a soulmate heart beats fast inside
and with shame the heavens stop
divide
and take the mountains high as might
but when the curtains fall from height
and Oh ! the scent of softness pour
Its hard Its hard
Hard to control
The lust the love the urge
to smell
to pour
the love in my self
Can drink and drown in eyes of gold
and Lips of heavens make hell galore
the Kings can come and stop all time
But Tonight is mine
and only mine

God

2011-04-11T20:37:00.000+05:30

Humble sound of the wind

Trembling song of the seas

Midnight dreams

Dreams which one can say good bye to

Ever wondered how the Gods speak?

God, with a beautiful light

Light shedding throughout life

Life, making it as bearable

As it can be

Shattering away millions of those lights

Why?

Doesn’t God exist for them?

Or only for those who are the special ones

Children of a greater God may be?

Dumbbells shinning everywhere

Where God once shined before

Why God can’t stop this burning flame

When millions of tears flow?

Down, down with the Eyes of God

Flowing now and by

Blind with the garland on

God closed his eye

Cunning, very cunning they say

A trait humans have inherited

Along with some love and care

And hatred twice as May

With hands and feet bare

We pray. We pray.

Sacrifice we say

Heals the wounds of doomsday

But if peace is so enlightened

Then why is it in pieces

Picking up this fragile glass

Careful, lest it pricks

Pain, they say, is God’s own way

To show how else is life (how life is else)

And why then

By ones own choice

Happiness comes and goes by

If God was there and everywhere

Why such shouts are made?

My God resides with my soul

And all the evils stay

My choice, my word, my destiny

All governed by one

One that resides inside me

God is where I am.

- Saswati Barat

Smile

2010-03-07T00:36:00.001+05:30

Smile
And the world shall laugh at your face
Cry
And the world shall laugh at your face
Run
And the world might still be laughing at your face

How synthetic this emotions seem
When a girl cries or smiles
Or runs with joy or fear
Here and There
And everywhere
When Death is so near

Let alone this world feel ashamed
Of her chastity might proclaim
And if she is not to be true
Honor killing will do

To save our names and bonds
And the status we built upon
The walls so high
To not let her fly
And chain her down
With red bangles

Fly my friend
And let the world know
You are free
Free to be
Me

- Saswati Barat

A Promise

2010-03-07T00:35:00.000+05:30

Father of the son
Mother of the child
Child of the earth
Promise
Promise me today
That you shall save this
Humanity
And not let it die
Die with guns and blood
And rain acid all over my breast
Promise you wont let
Me die
Die of disease or distress
And cherish the fruit I grow
From my womb
For your benefit
And not just feel ashamed
To say no
No to all who sell my womb
Sell your mother away ?
Go my child
Save the earth
Save humanity
From today
Promise.

- Saswati Barat

I

2010-01-22T21:06:00.003+05:30

I am the circle in the square
The tree in the leaf
I am the smile in the tear
And I am the useful in the heap

The heap of wastes which is thrown away
Away by those who don't care
Care to even look at me stuck
Deep within there

I am skeptical
I am jealous
I am lonely
But I am fearless
Brave enough to say

I lie

And I lie to see that others
Are not bothered to care
Care about the real person
That is I

I say I am good
Good in ways which world doesn't want me to be
Good in ways where people mock
At the very sight of me
I , as a human
Graced by the heaven
Live and let live I within me

- Saswati Barat
9:21 PM
22nd Jan 2010

A tale of a woman

2010-01-07T01:09:00.003+05:30

The peace I search

Of mind and soul

The peace of being alone

Born to be beaten

Crushed at the feet

Dropped out of school

And then sold away with relief

A burden of a daughter

A sister

And a wife

I learn

I live

I learn to live

And live to let others live too

My powers they say

Are of no use

Except of mane if any I produce

Give me a chance

Let me fight too

Let me be free

Free from the wisdoms

Stitched by thee

Some peace of mind

And peace of soul

My body my womb

I can console

I am not born to listen

Their yes or no

I am not bound to sit

When the heads nod and go

I shall not follow

What my mother has been

In laws too

Are not to be rhymed

I can find myself

Amongst the crowd of many

Let me fly too

With my own grown wings

- Saswati Barat

Land of reds , blues and greens.

2009-12-24T21:53:00.002+05:30

Craning the head
Settling in a busy city
The nose searches a familiar smell
But alas !
Lost
Lost in the midst of thousands of reds blues and greens
A brown wonders where to sit down
Down by the drain he sits
And looks on
On towards the plain of metal roads
And black smoke
Ferry green ? Where is it ?
Back down the memory lane
Powerful winds with a rosemary smell
Fills the nose back to reality
AAcchhoo
Disgusting the Brown thinks
In this colorful world with such
Dirty tricks
Tricks played on wools and pins
And even water to drink
Drink ?
And in search of that i come.
Come far my land to this
This land of reds blues and greens !

Saswati Barat
24th Dec 2009
10:03 PM

Humanity

2009-12-07T13:31:00.003+05:30

Can this humanity
claim
that it has drawn out
the best of its manners
can it say
it has been fair
to the world around
How can the world feel
so disoriented
Opposinf its own preaching
how can one call this
Humanity
Humane ??
Pretence is the mask taught
taught to be glued
and never taken apart
lest someone catches you
and shatter the existence of humanity
in mere dust
greed
hypocricy
and what not
is made this
humanity
so inhuman to tolerate

- Saswati barat
7-dec-2009

life and lesser life

2009-10-31T22:08:00.000+05:30

when the mind boggles
over the specs of life
and binds the heart
within the girdle
of kisses and hugs
my heart wonders where it went
on a vacation is it?
lovely blue to cover the gray
sweet honey memory or
red hot chillies ?
like any body
i would like to be there
and would you want to know
where would i stay
but yes
yes i would laugh
and dance with the tunes
gushing out every
blush
oh blush
melting like a new made sand pot
full of bubbles and full of life
with a bit of a dive
and straighten the kinds
of the less thought emotions
less traveled roads
and lesser evils of myself
care to know
where to go
again
let me flow
and be gone
gone with the waves
and depth of the ocean
and corals being my guardians of
destiny

-saswati
31st october 2009

Bangla poem - "TUI"

2009-10-30T12:32:00.005+05:30

ami janina na
ar konodino kauke bhalo bashte parbo kina
toke ja bashi shetai onek
"overwhelming" ja bole ar ki
nischoi bhabchis bangla te hotat
ki korbo bol
mon ta to shei bangalir
tai sob moner kotha ar engriji te likhte parina
jodi bhul bujhis
shotti to
bhul bojha bujhi amader moddhye onektai kom
mone ache
boltam agey ?
amader moddhe koto koto similarities
gune mote cchota "difference" peyechilam
tahole bolna re
aj keno erom
holo amader
amader .. bhableo kemon ekta hashi paye
tar porei chokh bhore kanna
jani re
ami ektao kichu theek korina
hoeto "personality" tai oram
"loose" ..
nah aj bolte kharap lagchena
kintu janis
toke na khub bhalobashi
khub
bhabini kokhuno je erom ekta poristhiti te porte hobe
khub "pure" mone hoto nijeke
jani sheta keuna
dhoya tulshi pata to noe
borong "drain" er jole nogra hoe jawa ekta mon
tar moddheo janis lukiye ache ekta konae
ekdom heere moton ekta tukro
khali tor jonno
bole na
koela khurle heere pawa jae
oram e hoeto
ekhun ashi
abar kal ashbo
toke na dekhe beche thakte parina je
bhalo thakish monai
kkhub bhalo thakish
bhalobashi toke
onek

- saswati barat

ps : aj sunchilam brototi bondhopadhya'r kobita'r ekta cd.. shotti .. ki sundor sundor shob kobita. . . oikhan thekei ar ki insipiration peye ... jani baje hoeche .. tobuo

Words & Feelings

2009-10-30T11:52:00.004+05:30

What is sadness ?
What is this pain ?
Why does it occur ?
Why does it stay ?
Is it because I've lost a bait
A promise made to stay
But can't the circumstances count
Am I always to be blamed ?
A human always wants
Some love and peace of mind
Some shelter and care
And a drop of smile
But even when I give bounds
Without ever thinking of a return
Never to correct your mistakes
Why do i fail ever?
May be its my "fate"
Crooked towards the heart line
Yes
Palmistry is my major these days
Can't rely
On mine
But will you please tell me why
Why don't at times
I deserve
Or is it that I am really worthless
And pathetic of all dooms ?
I don't want it always
But at times I too feel human
Wanting to be loved
to be cared
A warm hand to hold
A wide shoulder to sleep
My pillow
That's what I would say
I have stayed awake so long
Just to see you sleep
Touching your forehead with my fingers
And reclining back almost
So that you just don't wake up
I know
I do
Yes you too
Love me
And I really don't wan anything more
But may be at times
Foolishly
I might
Want a bit of expression
I love you
A small kiss
A heartfelt smile
And a soft touch
Please
Will you be mine ?
Forever ?

- Nameless Fameless

Mindless Heart

2009-10-23T22:53:00.002+05:30

how cunning is the world
makes you round and round
and takes your mind
to believe
its flat
cause if it was round
it wouldn't let you fall
it wouldn't let you just crash
and the proof of its flatness
raw still hard cold stones
which always makes you trip
and injure
but if it was round
wouldn't it let you just go
and never let go ?

And also the sky
beautiful they say
I say
its just a blanket
Blanket to cover up your eyes
and force you to see the world
like others do

But why
Why shall I ?
Don't i have me own mind ?
Can't I say feel
That would be just mine
Yes
I know
I am selfish
I am jealous
But will you say
Why i can't be like me ?

When they do the same
and claim its just for fun
Why can't I ?
Why is mine always the crime
Why ?

- Nameless Fameless

Story of a heart

2009-10-23T13:56:00.003+05:30

Let answers be told
and lights be shown
dividing any wrong
any petty strong
Emotions can go wild
One can cry
Can't they ?
Why is it wrong
Wrong to say the way
Your emotions keep dusting
In your heart
And cause that Heart beat is strong
can u hear it sound
Banging to be heard
and saved Saved
from the walls it has built on its own will
will which might have just been some still
still of life
where the mind
let heart choose what felt right
right at the moment of "truth"
Break me free
Let me see please
I need love
I need care
I wanna be touched
I wanna be felt
I don wanna be caged like this
Please trust me
I don't wanna hurt you
I wanna be with you
All my life
Please
Let my heart Sing to you
Once
Its own story

- Nameless Fameless

night of the angel

2009-10-09T12:34:00.002+05:30

the angel
came riding on a unicorn
she stood by
waiting for me to come
but since i was late she went away
never to come back again
will she not understand my
plight ?
oh angel
come back please
take me with you
to the woods
to the ice
and the sand
let me too see
the world with your eyes

Kal

2009-09-02T21:15:00.002+05:30

Time
Is mortal
Cause it dies as
Every minute passes by
And Lessens the joys
And of course some sorrows
Of life
While ticking away
The past
The present just blinks away
The future a breath apart
Time makes a day
A night
And a week
A month
And years together makes Time
So mortal
So dead
So historically
Sly
I will never get
That time back
To be patient enough
And
Wait to watch and see
What happens
To time

- Saswati Barat

A seed , A life and A Smile

2009-08-26T01:16:00.003+05:30

I am a seed
Born to grow and die
Born to live by
Life's Smile
And through my eyes
I see the world in the littlest size
And you call me not as
Daring
As a mustache with a beard
Strong dependable muscles
Weird !
Of how this world might turn
To beasts
Than beauties ?
Agreed I am the ugliest
The most prettiest of all ugly
Mankind wants me to refresh
Soft water
Rose petals
Soft Supple Skin
Which always makes people
By far go wild
Hate and Contempt the
Very presence of the either
If the man reads the newspaper
God forbid the women might
Go out of their grasp
And tell me why
Such improper justice
Is meddled upon
Even among wives
Of the wealthy Babus
Don't be confused
Because life can
Be harsh
At times

A seed , A life and A Smile

- Saswati Barat
1:22 Am

ps : don't know if you will like it or not.. many might find it feminist in nature but it was not in the true sense, and again it is true, i had targeted the "sexually" dominated in the society

Fear

2009-08-24T22:47:00.005+05:30

Like i said
Cough it out
Sneeze that bit
Pain
Stuck in that
Lump down your
Throat

Shake it off
Blow it out
Don't Care
Its you
Who it matters
The most

Fear of uncanny things
Things royal and mundane
Fear of being afraid
Of losing the face

Of biting a small piece
Fearing you might gulp down the whole
Of touch slightly
Fearing you might not let go of the hold

Fear
Brush it off
No
Not brave
Fools act that way
Just act normally
Normally the way
You would

Don't you let that fear
Get in your way
Its a cunning four legged
Always lurking behind surprises
Good news
Fear might overshadow
Crouch you down the sun

Stand up
Fight back
Don't Fear

- Saswati Barat

ps : thanks to Indrajit for the spell check :)

Dedication

2009-08-07T21:11:00.003+05:30

Life seems to unfold
When you think you have settled down
And makes you stir in that comfy seat of yours
As if telling you not to just yet
Put your guard down
And that frown
Which finds its way through your face
Might project a lot of disgust
To life's amusement
And bring about that little change you never would have welcomed
Could this be a challenge ?
Another "life's games" may be ?
Or is it much more complex
Rather simple in its terms
To juggle ones fate
In their own hands
If you drop it
You loose !
And if you don't
Master is sure to find a way you do
And even if you survive
Life ain't gonna make this easy for you
Why do we strive so hard
So hard in this once in a lifetime ?
Purely not indulging to our pleasures
To counter react on our impulses
Better off
Less than
Why is it so hard to believe we live
And live not for one's sake but life's ?

- Saswati Barat

I am Society

2009-08-04T21:18:00.003+05:30

I am society

I am the mind

I am greedy

I am the kind

I am love

And I am peace

I am what you

Think of me is

I twirl and twist

And stop the change

I break the bottle

And shift the phase

I am Mighty

I am a Beast

I can be tasty

But I can be least

Least bothered

Least concerned

Lest you make

Me feel

I am perfect

I am time

I am mortal

I am fine

I am a story

I am a tale

I was the king

And the angel

I am cold

Cold like the mountains

And I am warm

Warm

When the sunshine beats

When the grenades fail

I am the blanket

I inhale

All your sorrow

All your grief

I am old

And I am ancient

But I am patient

I am the society

- Saswati Barat

2009-07-30T19:29:00.002+05:30

Your eyes light me up
With that thirst buried
Buried deep in them
So deep that it makes me
Drown

For it may become another ocean
Ocean full of mysteries
And
An ocean which can stretch
Longer than any

Sailing through
I find myself
Lost
Lost in you

What can be more delightful
Delightful than these blue
With a dash of brown in the corners
What can be more true

Take me
Eat me with your eyes
Let me stay in them
And fly

- Saswati Barat

ps : somehow this was inspired by the book "Twilight" by Stephenie Meyer

Ecstasy

2009-07-26T23:47:00.002+05:30

Ecstasy
Being able to grasp you hard
And turn you into my arms
Pull you close
Feel you close
Bless me Oh!
This feels so high
High
Of the soft pink touching
Of the redness of the valve
Ah !
You make my heart go wild
Ecstatically
Wriggling beneath
Your bosom
When our lips forever meet
Entangling us in a bond
Of
Lust
No , not the bad one
Of the one which comes to us all
As a mere existing human
Gratifying to his needs
Need to love
Need to touch
Need to feel
Ecstasy

- Saswati Barat
july 26th 2009
11:59 PM

Kho gaye hum

2009-07-13T22:31:00.005+05:30

Dil hi dil main
Kho gae hum
Saanso ke palko main
So gaye hum

So gaye hum in nasheele baahon main
Na rok saki yea dil
is haseen muskurahat se

Ret ke jaise pighal gae hum
NA pyaas bujhi
In hoton ki baarish se

Na pyaas bujhi
in hoton ki baarish se
Na raat guzri
in lamho ki tarikh se

Girti patto ki tarah
Kuch bol na pae hum
Na pae kuch bol
in phigle fulo ki tarah

Agar ho sake to
rokiye na humain
Hum naachis jaise
kitne aaenge

Ap ki roshan se phigal jaenge
Kho gaye hum mitti ki tarah
Paani ki tarah beh gaye hum

Dil hi dil main
kho gae hum
Saanso ke palko main
So gaye hum

- Saswati Barat
14 july 2009

MY Birthday Song

2009-07-12T12:44:00.005+05:30

When the sky meets the earth
With the goodness of the drop
The drop with the "plop"

Nothing seems so beautiful
Nothing seems so true
True with its blue

This day was I born Born
In the light of the moon
The moon Smiled and blessed
Said "dear , you are going to be true"

True like the rain which falls
Washing away all the dirt from thy heart
Like it smells on fresh mud

Mud , which makes you feel
Home
Down to be the one
You were born

Born like a princess
With crystals in your eyes
And soft velvet in your skin
And a heart of gold

The Rain said
"Dear , be caring and nice
loving and dear
Sacrifice
when needed to do so"

The moon also gave me
Some tests to complete
Said "dear , how will you pass this life if you don't prove to be alive?"

And the moon drench me with its rain
As I forever slept in its arm
Wit closed eyes
And a warm heart

Heart which still beats today
As I grow older a year
A year again to complete

So on this day
I thank the Moon the Rain Thank you
For making me feel alive Once again !

- Saswati Barat

ps : okay .. now my birthday was this wednesday , i.e 8th .. and i always think of these lines .. so decided to jot them down .. hope you like them !

MY FIVE FAV FOOD !!!!!

2009-07-03T00:50:00.003+05:30

Legend

2009-06-26T21:48:00.003+05:30

Man says that legend is in himself
Man says that legend is HIM
But what does legend say ?
Was it really the man himself or was it something different?

Things in life don't turn out well
One blames ones destiny
Fate laughs
But one cries
Justice you might not like to call it.

Having grudges against someone you love is permitted
May not be in the society which wraps you every night
But yes in your heart
That beats tirelessly everyday for you
For you who lives on
and creates a LEGEND for himself

I wonder how they live
They
Whose hearts stop beating for them every night
And beat for the ones opposite to them
Inside them
How can you think that they belong to you
Mind-Body games
Lust
I salute them
But is it really the destiny they follow
It can be a matter of choice
Or in most may be
Force
Force of the legend behind them
Who have told them this is what you are
What you can
And What you will

Let me laugh
Who is going to watch me ?
Utter disgustingly
Shame
Fear
Forget them
Because legend says to do so
And you will do so
May be in the end

- Saswati Barat
27th June , 2009

Flowery thoughts

2009-06-06T00:22:00.001+05:30

Love.
A lost world.
In a lost word.
Streaming through the depths of our hearts..

Like a lifeless flower.
Which still remains but a flower.
Its presence radiating..

But.
Is it the fault of the flower?
To be green,purple or black,
And not match with the garden's yellow and blues.

Expression.
Of kind but honest lines..
Delivered.

- Saswati Barat

Oh Please

2009-06-01T20:34:00.001+05:30

Touch me with your smile
Touch me with your heart
Don't Leave
Oh please
Let me touch you with my soul
And feel you with my heart
Oh please
Don't Leave

I know i have been bad
May be worse than the most
But you know
I know that you know
I do love you alot
Come back
Don't leave me
Please
Oh please
Don't leave

When you smile
I feel the light
And the dark in the night
Like a starry gaze above
When you talk
Yes ..
Then i feel as if i am
Not with me anymore
Like i feel
Being swept off
By a invisible light
And then
You touch me with your smile
Touch me with your heart
I know
Yes i know
You won't leave me
Oh yes ...

- Saswati Barat
1, June 2009

Commotion

2009-05-20T23:54:00.004+05:30

Let it go
Let it stay
Let it run
But see it does not run away
Let it feel
Let it touch
Let it hold
But only till you can behold
Sweet noise
Purple dust
Morning and Twilight of dusk
Sincere love
Pathetic anyways ?
Sooth your heart
Open it
Smell it
But see that you don't hurt it
Don't eat it
It might not taste so good
As it looks to be
Be like that
Do like this
Compare
Don't Consult
Judge by your brain
Not your heart
Judge
By the ways
You have experienced
Life
And not by the
Ways taught to you
Sense it
And it will be yours
May be
Forever...

- Saswati Barat
1:14 Am
May 21,2009

Bellety

2009-05-05T19:58:00.002+05:30

Dipple Dumps .. Doddle

Words of a 7 months old baby

who doesnt even know the world

of troubles ? and happy endings too

Yes Yay How ... Who ?

Words of a solid old man .. Downtrodden

Loved and Left by known and unknown

Giggles of a girl child

Of a birthday surprise

Cry

Demanding How sweet that bye is

Chocolate date ? care love hug kiss

Demands of a gen-X Boy

Boy with strong will

No bare word dare describe his agressiveness

Aggressiveness

Of new born Child

To Live on and on

Who says this world is harsh ?

Harsh to those who accept it

Kindle the flame

Fold your palms

See how unnaturally natural this world is to be

To be yours and only yours

- Saswati Barat

@ everone !! ... sorry m presently in a holiday !! (YAAY !!) .. so kinda off the net... catch ya soon ! thans for commentin !!

Nature at its best

2009-03-26T15:47:00.002+05:30

Nothing as a poem
Nor as women
Neither being a crown
Nor a morning dawn
Just being my self till the end
I am Nature
Always at my best

- Saswati Barat
26th march 09

ps : okay now i did not intend to write any poetry but just post this beautiful picture i got while surfing.. :P

Man and his Kind

2009-03-23T22:26:00.001+05:30

Like wise I thought,
I might be of use,
And take the green blue hue
Turn it to white and cheer Peace be upon them
Wierd ways this mankind works
Where I fight because I've been told to
And then cry my breasts apart
Like a mother crying for a burnt child
While I whine my fate
To not give me mine
Enough says the human On the roads who dine
With milk-liped kids And left over food
Why do I fight
With God in my hand
And not understand even
Why He created
Man Of all living beings?
May peace be with you

-saswati barat 23rd march 09
(Blogd Frm my cell :-P)

Thoughtful thoughts

2009-03-22T22:14:00.003+05:30

Thoughtful thoughts
Of a migrant mind
With darted eyes
And stitched up lips

With pale white gaze
Like full moon haze
Come let me show you
MY world

Of drunken beats
Of left over life
Like merry go round
And seated knives

Belt it tight
Or else might bite
What laughter or cry
Smirk or shy

Bellowing sounds
Of heartfelt kiss
Let me show the passion
The heart warming bliss

Courage and wisdom of tightly
Switched them off on
Sacred religion
You and Me

Me the world u seek
Of thoughtful thoughts
And drunken beats
Of left over life

Thoughtful thoughts
Of a migrant mind
With darted eyes
And stitched up lips

Saswati Barat
10:40pm
March 22nd 2009

Change

2009-03-22T02:45:00.003+05:30

When things don't change in life
we wish it changes
when things do
we wish it never did

What is this change
which binds the human heart
and fears it so loud
that grips ?
But better ones never ?

Have you heard the long lost tale ? "Karur Poush maash to karur sorbonaash?"
Of bitter sweet tastes ?
Change is that which plunges us to the core
and thrust us up shore
to face this uncanny world
of new things
some old
same old but new
and some not even recognized by the eagle eye

Levels of laughter
Clouds of cries
Sea of smiles
All combine to welcome change
or even to revolt it

I am what i am
but I always want to be like that
Life is funny at times

- Saswati Barat
MARCH 22nd 2009

A poem

2009-03-08T00:42:00.003+05:30

A poem is poet's thought
A poet's Imagination
A poem is poet's
Pride

A pride which is hard
to take away by buying
A poem is that
which gives
Life
to a lifeless soul
Life
to a mindless heart
A poem is everything
to a Life
without any meaning

A meaning to still exist
A meaning to still
Thrive
Thrive for that only world
Which brings you grays
and blacks
and Whites
White lies

A poem is eternal
may not be real
may not be famous
A poem is
the heart and mind
of the people

BITS OF MY LIFE

2009-03-05T01:16:00.002+05:30

Beauty

2009-03-04T20:37:00.003+05:30

I may be artificial
I may be not real
I may be not true
But I am beauty
Beauty which seeks in a heart
of thousand blossomed Rose
Take me
And bind me with the snow
Try me
And sing me with a bow
I will remain humble
and not wince or twin
I will flow gently
like a soundless shadow by
And end up folded in the covers
like memories of a loved
but forgotten one
I am beauty
True to its nature
and Son

- Nameless Fameless ( Saswati Barat)
March 04,2009
9:17 PM

Random Life

2009-03-03T00:45:00.003+05:30

When i Feel it has been long
Longer than i waited
Of soft and brittle eye lashes
Waiting to be knitted
By those drunken smile and
Kitty eyes
My Lord , Why do I feel so
Happy ? When the world
is still fresh Red
and the mountains Howl behind
I feel as if in a Garden
With Flowers
Petals
Mangoes and Oranges
Is that what you say the gift
Of nature ..
O' Lord
Forgive thy speech
but I don't wanna see these things
All i want is Me
My Life
in a small little hut
enough to feed us
And wake up everyday with a blessing
That God has given us
Pray that the night be peaceful
Yes
i will make Love
Love towards my life
and in the end
when the laws of nature comes by
I will create a new life
May Lord bless it
with all its might.

- Nameless Famelesss
March 03 , 2009

thoughts unbound

2009-02-24T21:11:00.002+05:30

if u hate me
i will hate u back
if u love me
i might love u more
if u ignore me
i will try ignoring u
so what is this life about ?
love
hate
ignore?
nothing more to deepen its line ?
like may be smell
or taste ! of ur eyes .. when it falls on the same gaze as mine
like a lily trying to hide its shadow from the sky
blue sky
if u dont hate me
then do u love me
if u do then why do u ignore me ?
i really dont understand such
complexities
this life throws at us
as ifa math exam for checking the next einstien
life
want it to be much simpler
like
care
trust
bond
friends ! yes thats the first word i remember i learnt to become the
social animal everyone talks about of
come
let me touch those finger tips
and slide away in ur thoughts
perfect blend
of magic
and happiness
thoughtfully wrapped in the smoothness of your touch.

saswati barat
24th Feb 2009

My Frist Oil Painting !

2009-01-13T00:04:00.000+05:30

Dress I wanna wear on my reception ! LOL

2009-01-12T22:22:00.001+05:30

ME

2009-01-12T19:19:00.002+05:30

My Ma doesn’t seem to respond me well

Not well enough to identify me in her eye

My Pa keeps reminding me of my values

I just crossed a decade in my life

Roll no. 3, Academic Topper, Naughty lil girl

Some synonyms my teachers gift me

Idiot and nonsense gifted by some others

Though I just happen to be me

Just me

The unlucky year arrives

Arrives with it maturity

“You’re a big girl now” my parent reminds

Reminds me of my purity

Active, Jolly, Committed

I play different roles in my life

Life to me as a Student

Life to be still a Child

My me welcomes a new company

Her name seems to be Teen

Arrives with her some designations

Which happens to be gifted to me?

Cell-freak, psycho, stout and chatter

Best friend, Girl Friend, “Cute” and bitter

Me goes hunting to hither and thither

In search of a so called “my character”

Of me being a standard ten learner

Of me being the school orator

OR is it something of me being alone

Just me and only me?

A painter, a dancer and a beautiful young lady

Stick to me for the next pair of years

Years yearned to gain my freedom

I now come to be known as self-earner

A social worker, A web developer

A poet and A manager

My me seems to have found

The requirements for her

She is a girl

She is a daughter

She is a sister

And an Aunt

She is an Indian

She is a Bengali

She is a Baidya

And a plant

Yet to grow its leaves and roots deep inside the earth

And Leave a mark on the surface

To be identified as

Just me

Only me

- Nameless Fameless

Midnight Crowd

2009-01-11T00:17:00.001+05:30

Bustle and hustle
beeps and bombs
of the silent skies
which cries
in my eyes
like lighted lamp
with the breaded vamp
of the clock strikes eleven
oh me the heaven
will sleep soon
let me hear it again
nomadic views
transperent hues
birdly crows
vows and hows
of being that man
or woman in the car
of drenched wet seats
like messed up beats
joyous highs
mented minds of burned ashes
smoke
and dark
yes thats not
the limped packet
of cookies
i choose
with milked acid
of white plain dark
skinned men
and the purple haze
and the blue star gaze
between the sheets
shifting breaths
mumbled jumbles
of go-bye bus
meanwhile hush
drops down shadow
no mere window
black
pitch
swan
ditch
donkey
yes
thats true
my dreams
being able to miss and miss you.

- saswati barat
12th nov 2008

Wonders ...

2009-01-11T00:04:00.002+05:30

i wonder why
it feels like a raining sky
as if the world is wet
no not with tears
with happiness..
i wonder why
it feels the dark sky
gushes out its deepest purple
sworing the moon like the best of pearls
as if it is not the queen
but with her order - the
most precious of all .. that wonders
may be the gleamy pearlish light
sooths my eye to make me happy
and cry
tears of joy .. nature bestows
those flowers that smell of the happy hours of the day and night
i wonder why
i always am within those open windows
being softened by the harsh cold things of life
and warmed by the hands of those
who i really care and love and protect
green leaves
orange umbrella
red candy
kindling blue of that last candle i have
to save for my candle-lit dinner
my wonders keep wondering
i really wonder how

- saswati barat
Saturday, November 01,

Please ..

2009-01-10T23:51:00.002+05:30

i don't want to wake up
and see the mornign sky
i don't want to stand
alone in that crowded lane
i don't want to breath again
that sweet breath of yours
i want to die
die and fade away
u wanted to fade away too right ?
with u and urself
i want to
with all that i have
with all that we had
i hate u
i wont forgive u
u hurt me
like the morning hurts the last hopes of darkness
like the july rain hurts the hard soil
like the butterfly hurts the soft petals
why ? why is it that i have to suffer
each and every time
that trust
trust of being with u
trust of being urs
how could u break it
break it into pieces
shattered and smashed it
so badly
please
just leave me
i cannot take this
it hurts
the morning sky
the blue rays
the green drops
i hate it
i wanna live again
please
i want to live it
i may not be aware of ur favourite color
i may not be aware of ur favourite tune
i may not be that pretty petal everyone seeks
i am sorry
please
i beg u

- saswati barat
25th october 2008

Secret

2009-01-09T03:19:00.003+05:30

will u keep a secret
like the stars of the sky
will u keep my heart with u
like the bee in the hive
will u please
tell me why
oh i feel
like i have been intoxicated
with that touch in ur hands
like i feel in the stands
when u pass me by
oh that golden smile
will u please
keep a secret
like me tellin u to be
not like me
again
and again
yes i feel being intoxicated
do u know
when i go
the morning stars tell me that
oh yes u wud know
coz u keep my secrets
oh yes

2009-01-07T15:04:00.001+05:30

Create Your Glitter Text

Magnificent life

2009-01-07T14:54:00.003+05:30

What is this melodious feeling?

Like butterflies and purple flies

Benched upon the coloured Umbrella?

Messing up the morning hair to make it messier

Even weaving a sock which has 2 different tones

Butterfly dreams

Wet mornings

Dropped window panes

Moisten lips with the tip of the tongue

Hiding your face from the fellow passer byes

To make that peck on the mouthpiece for that special someone

Unshaped round pebbles

Good to try

Chocolate Popsicle

Berried bun

Moonlit candles to make a bit sour soup than expected

Some mistakes which do make u really happy

Content

Jealous at times

To give that tingling affection

Exactly between your heart and lungs

At times like the evening breathe of wind

Slowly passing bye

To make u feel cold and cared

Dummy head

Sweet little cutie pie

Closed cupboards that have keys stuck at the holes

Honey dropping from the hives

Open shoelace but still trying to walk by

Life

Magnificent life!

- Saswati Barat

10:55 pm

10 November 2008

Pain

2009-01-07T14:53:00.004+05:30

pain .. what is this pain ?? this burning drowning pain
as if the ocean is on fire .
as if the wind has stopped
as if vaccum has egulfed
pain
of sharp teeths in my chest
of rough hands that used to be once soft
so soft that i wouldn leave them
thats why i had plastered my hands with those
but now i cant remove it. . it pains .. those rugged hands
i wish they would turn back to "normal"
normal .. i wonder what is this normal
is it like normal water
air
sound
music
or breath even .. inhale and exhale the poisons of life
the pains of life
the destiny it holds for me
the promises i had
painfully

- Nameless Fameless
24th oct 2008

2009-01-07T14:53:00.003+05:30

2009-01-07T14:51:00.001+05:30

wanting something dusn get u .. i have learnt that lesson long back
being a grasshopper in the grass may be dusn earn u the fame
heart u say .. feels like throbbing it out...
at times i dont get the ways things work
at times feels things work the ways i want
strange thing is i never felt that i ever lived .. may be tommorow
a new day
a new world
new friends
but why does it pain to leave behind that is old
not talkin about those golds and chumkis which wanna be with me
i am talkin about those broken pieces of bangles .. who dont
or is that i see them like broken .. u know i tried so hard to put them back
i heard time heals things. . it never heald. . like a flood which already had engulfed the barriers ..
like a dam having so many small holes that it wont break .. but neither it would stop
did u see the sky this morning ? how did it look ? sweet ? blue ? dark ?
i cant remember the last time i had the courage to look straight into the eyes ..
but its not that i lack it .. nor even regret
i hope u meet my feelings someday . they keep running away u know .. i send dem
like a kite in search of that same shade. . a bird .. reaching towards u
but always failing .. may be i cant compete with the nostalgias u have
but i would try
and i would always hope
i have learnt it .. again

- nameless fameless
23rd oct 2008

2009-01-07T14:50:00.000+05:30

now .. when was the last time u noticed me
may be in the park
walking with a pink hat on me .. or was it on that day .. remember . raining .. u and me ..
i laugh at times relaising how childish this play is
of being honest from heart .. i wonder how it looks .. "PINK HEART"
yes yes i know u are thinkin about love
i have to admit i was always on those rows
of being able to touch
to smell
to kiss
and to feel
the roses of ur cheeks
and gently river the smile of ur mind
its been a while hasn't it
of us being the stars of the sky ?
and nonchalantly playing that game
yes yes . that game .. dont telme u don remember ,of those lovely hearts n dimsim lights and grass and pathways ...
i felt my lips twich . could have been a smile. . dont know ..
may be u could .. may be

- saswati barat
23rd oct 2008

Heart Beat

2009-01-07T14:20:00.002+05:30

the touch of the smile ..
the score of the lips ..
the light of the eyes ..
the heart beat slips ..

something so pure .. so clear .. so clean
something so cosmicly beastly scene

to hurt to heal to high to have
to know the truth of the blood which
flows and have

again the touch of the smile ..
the score of the lips ..
the light of the eyes ..
and the heart beat slips ....

Saswati Barat
1:41 am
march 22nd , 2008

Crypted

2009-01-07T14:20:00.001+05:30

crypted

crypted in the shadows of being
My self
crypted in the humble world of
Disaster
crypted in the minds of many
Enemies
i claim myself
CRYPTED

down the streaming sky
i write my words high
and slowly see them Crawling
back to the earth
like a free bird in a golden cage !

crypted by them who wish for my
failure
crypted by them who want me to
Loose
crypted by them who never fail to
stab back !

living between the shadows -
of both love and lust
of pockets full of blood and yet warmth
of those who care and dont

i find myself
crypted

- saswati(nameless fameless)

Gibirish

2009-01-07T14:19:00.001+05:30

Gibirish

i write on this day of the 7th of october '07
thank you i am honoured for being
patient enough
relatively

monsier, can u tell me why are u reading such
a meaningless thing ? only because
it has been given to you ? is it that are you
forced to do so ? or at ur will .. yes yes i can understand
how dare can someone do something without your will

after all . humans are the super beings !

or is it ?

and u little child .. y do u read dis piece of gibirish?
in ur syllabi ? or is it ur parents said .. read my child ?
y do u do so ? sumthin u not wish to ?
humans huh ?? super beings ??

well well creativity is simplicity .. no bill clinton doesnt say so
i do .. who i ?? i am human .. yes a human .. remember ?
super being ??

if life could be traced like this , in a candle path of molten rods and stoned wind ..
can u say why i write it at all ? no u cant
how can u .. how many treat u as u are .. rather as u want to be ?

how many let u be urself. . yes we have huge philosophies huge people throwed upon us
but it is almost like some ones saying .. " anything worth learning is never taught !" or
rather i must say .. " nothing worth learning is taught ever"

can u say why i am writing such nonsense? and wasting your valuable time and space
this time and space could offer .. earth is round , so ? what should i do ?
i am not round ? am i ? i am human .. a being .. or am i again ?

now see .. how far have u reached of this gibirish i have been speaking to u
and u still intend to read it and yet feel disgusted .. what a waste
not a waste but haste my love
nothing is useless untill u make it
like those people in the far islands fighting for cooking !
imagine .. anyone do that .. but yes that is truth
and as always .. truth is harsh ..

gibirish the end !
amen !

- saswati (nameless fameless)

Pieces of Peace

2009-01-07T14:17:00.000+05:30

in pieces of solitude and destiny
i try to find a piece of peace
peace of mind
and soul
peace of being solitary
insanity never rules
can never dream be the true identity ?
i seek to pieces
pieces of peace
love and hatred coincide
where i can claim i am not insane
yes i am bad
worse than the worst human
planet earth can offer in this
stinking drain
whose lives come and by and buy
authority speaks louder than power
hatred is power
greed and ambitions
love is authority
want to love those loved ones
and care
i am insane
may be people say so
but who cares !!
pieces of peace in a jumble
placing them in order
can u see why i cry
noh !! u cant !
who cares !
i do !
u do !
we do !
humans
huh !! .. a word so lustfully meaningless
humanity dreams and dreaming
dreaming till yet
whatever
who cares !!!

- saswati (nameless fameless)

MY first oil painting !

2008-10-18T11:10:00.000+05:30